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[13 Apr 2006|07:51pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | jpop ^_^ ] Hi. Yep, don't know what I'm doing with my life. ^_^ But it's not grad school, so I don't have to make a decision by Saturday. So it's all good. =) Yeah, I never update. Just figured I'd state, for the ease of those around us that Jeff and I broke up. Don't worry if you can't really tell...no one else can either really. Or so it seems. We're still friends. 2 years of dating, and not hating each other when you break up works pretty well that way. Things have changed, but I guess to others it still looks pretty much the same. I'm told this entry seems terribly depressing, but I'm doing ok. It's really not as depressing as it seems. (Sarah's doing scary laugh impressions of how I'm coming off. I'm fine! I swear! Really!) But, uh, yeah. Just filling in the rest of the world. Good luck to those of you that are having to make decisions in the next couple of days. =) (1 Panic Attack | Don't Panic)

[06 Mar 2006|05:52am] Yep, I'm alive. Not much to say... =) I was told earlier by a friend of mine that he was incapable of describing my personality, so I got sort of curious.... Hence, one of these things, which supposedly has passed around before, but it comes back ^_^ http://kevan.org/johari?name=universe42 I'd be interested to see how this turns out.... (2 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

[17 Aug 2005|02:53pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | noise ] ( Meme stolen from Maryam ) (1 Panic Attack | Don't Panic)

18 months and new moodtheme [16 Aug 2005|02:03am] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Striptease - Hawksley Workman ] Trying out a new mood theme based on my current obsession over the cancelled TV show "Wonderfalls." If you're in the area, I may try to make you watch it, because it's good...in a quirky/weird/cynical sort of way. On one hand, it's unfortunate that they cancelled the show, because it was awesome. However, being the sucker for romantics/happy endings that I seem to be when it comes to all forms of media (starting from when I was 2, even, and my favorite show was "Moonlighting"), it's nice that they knew the end was coming and could wrap things up nicely and effectively. It leaves it open to your imagination, but everyone's...happy. More or less. I just wish the couple I liked best could have gotten more airtime. Ahh well. Back in California. It's nice to be back, but it was definitely nice to be home. Now just dreading having to move again, awaiting Jeff's eventual return from being away, and quietly celebrating 18 months together by myself in the "oh fuck i've been with him for 18 months but it's awesome because i really like him and it's cool but he's not here and everyone and their mothers (literally) were asking me when i was home if i was going to get married and i already have married friends and brandon's engaged to jessica and marriage is really creepy but i'm way ahead of myself and i don't really know what i'm doing with my life anyways and even if i did i don't want to be married and that's fine and i enjoy what i've had so far and i hope that it continues and it's only a little freaky that this relationship is now 3x as long as the second longest that i've had but anyways jeff is awesome and i wish he was actually here and that would be good but i'm happy that it's been 18 months and yay" sort of way. On an unrelated note, since I've discovered that my hair is somewhat red (in the ongoing process to figure out what color my hair actually is, since it isn't really blonde anymore) I've been thinking again of dying it (temporarily, and without bleaching if possible, cause bleaching sucks) red, maroon, or purple. Something in that general range of colors. Any thoughts? (2 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

[05 Aug 2005|02:34am] [ mood | vaguely insomniatic ] Not much of an actual update. Just needed something less sad and depressing as my latest update. I'm home in Texas right now. It's nice...quiet. General Midland-like. There's not a whole lot to do around here in general, except for vaguely smile at the cuteness of my brother and his girlfriend. Or watch TV. I get in enough TV over the breaks here at home to tide me over for a while. There are only so many "Top 100 Child Stars gone bad" countdowns, or VH1 in general, that you can watch. Otherwise, things are going well, though. My future car is back out of the shop, and seems to be in pretty good shape. She'll probably be cleaned up before I get her, since my dad and brother are driving to CA in it. I've got a feeling that my dad will demand that it's cleaned before he spends far too long driving in it. Once they're out to CA, and my brother is settled in to Oxy, the car will become mine, though. Part of the long line of "becomming a grownup", I guess. I'm going to have to go start getting insurance, and parking clearance and all that when I get back. In other news, I have a cell phone. If you want the number, let me know and I can give it to you. It's a Virgin Mobile phone, so it's a pre-paid/pay-as-you-go sort of thing. I don't really want it to be my main phone, since I'm still not a huge fan of cellphones, but they're useful, especially when I'm driving. (No cracks about armored trucks. =P) That's about all that's going on, though. I guess the only other thing: any ideas for a birthday present for Jeff? (Or a birthday/18-month aniversary/you survived FT present?) Yes, I already know weapons are an option. =) ( Also some other bad opening lines for novels ) (Don't Panic)

[28 Jun 2005|01:53am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | grey's anatomy music ] meh. I didn't really expect the supreme court's decision in the Grokster case. I sort of thought, after reading the appeal's courts decision/discussing it in law class, etc, that Grokster would win. Perhaps it was a naive hope, but I dislike the precedent that companies can be held responsible for what their customers do. Granted, they put a few more words in there that make it more closed than that (sufficient/significant non-infringing use; "with the object of promoting its use to infringe copyright, as shown by clear expression or other affirmative steps taken to foster infringement" is responsible for the resulting piracy of third parties; and such), but still....Just not what I had expected, or hoped for. Decided on Saturday that I might try to actually make a costume in time for AX. Not particularly likely to happen, given that a) I don't know how to sew, b) I'm not currently in possession of a sewing machine, and c) I don't feel like spending the next 48 hours straight sewing. Oh well. I will still make it, just perhaps not in time for this. Maybe later. (And for those that are interested in what it is....well... =P *coughpantasiauniformcough*) Yes, I'm a weirdo. There was something else that I was going to say, but I can't remember what now. Eh. Maybe there will be an edit later when I figure it out. [EDIT]: So, amazingly enough, I remembered what the other thing I was going to say was. I went out the used DVD place the other day and found a copy of Bride and Prejudice on sale, and being a sucker for most Jane Austen-related things, I bought it. I really like the movie. Sure, it's terribly stupid in many ways, and the book and most recent BBC film version are infinitely superior, but it's cute and funny and just nice to watch. While watching Ashanti sing in it, I thought I remembered some of the femoles (who know more hindi/other appropriate languages than I do, and more about the culture than I do) say that she wasn't really that good in the song. So I was online looking around, and discovered that a lot of people of Indian descent really hate the movie and find it degrading. This took me by surprise because, while it is stupid I didn't think it portrayed anyone or any culture particularly badly. Sure, it's a disney-esque version of Indian culture, but I didn't think it was insulting. Perhaps I just don't have sufficient ties to any part of my heritage to understand, but it confuses me. The part I could most understand is that it's the suave American and Britain that come in and win the girls, and the Indian male that take the part of Mr. Collins. I suppose in that way it sort of plays down the Indian men as being silly or stupid. Nevertheless, I just don't particularly understand. I still enjoy the movie, and think it is amusing as what it is, and I suppose if people take it as a representative of Indian culture, then they're stupid. It's kind of like taking any big-budget, stupid action flick from Hollywood as a representative of American culture. Movies take the unusual and amplify it....that's what they do... Oh well. (2 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

Chandler, etc [17 Jun 2005|03:03am] [ mood | good ] [ music | Save Me - Jem ] I may finally have a job. Or at least something that vaguely resembles one. I'm going to talk to the grad student (again) tomorrow and see if he'll just put me to work doing something that isn't sitting around the apartment playing video games. I missed another earthquake today. That's three earthquakes since Saturday that I haven't felt, though I was at least awake for this one....just walking around outside at the time, and didn't notice. After hearing Jeff complain so much about Chandler, I decided to go check it out for myself. For those of you not at Tech, you can see some (not too great) pictures of the place on my pictures page. I must admit, they could have done a better job with the layout. It is pretty. The place is nicely colored, with very nice and tasteful decorations, and just looks...new. It's very pretty. However, they've left even less manuevering space in the serving area, between the super-long salad bar, various food stations, and the drinks. Between the salad and the drinks there's room for maybe two people...if they aren't burdened by anything pesky like food or drinks. They screwed up the mongolian line pretty well too (I went through that, so I can say the most about it). Theoretically it would work, with the line coming from both sides to meet up in the middle, where they put meat in your bowl (due to health reasons, you're not allowed to serve your own meat anymore) and take it to cook. However, there are different vegetables and sauces on the two sides, so you end up switching back and forth all over the place to get everything you want. With the lunch crowd in there? It's going to be painful...I was lucky and went about 1:30, so it wasn't very busy. As Jeff mentioned too, the stations have terribly dorky names. Catchy, in the PR sort of way, but they make all of us groan. All in all, it will be....interesting next year. It will just be a time to really try to arrange your schedule to have more than an hour for lunch. Then you'll have a bit better chance of getting food. (8 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

a seperate, and unrelated post [15 Jun 2005|06:08pm] [ mood | calm ] If you want to see the couple of pictures I've loaded so far, they're at this location It's only a few Ditch Day pictures at the moment, but eventually I'll get some more up there. Still no job, at least officially. Still working on it. Also getting sucked into Sandy's gamecube...Started playing Ocarina of Time last night. Somewhere in Goron City now. Hopefully I'll get a job soon so that I don't spend the entire summer playing Zelda! (Don't Panic)

[15 Jun 2005|06:07pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | random acapella music ] I give in. Stolen from a variety of people. 1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you. [Include your name....please? =P] 2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you. 3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be. 4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you. 5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you. 6. I will tell you what color you remind me of. 7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you. 8. Put this in your journal. (10 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

149 movies.....so few! [10 Jun 2005|04:31am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Pirates soundtrack ] ( Movie Meme stolen from Thursday - 149 for me ) (Don't Panic)

[15 Apr 2005|03:28am] Why am I still up? Nobody knows. Just feels like I'm missing something. I wish there was more certainty about living arangements for the next year. It seems like no matter what I'm going to end up screwing over one of my friends, and I don't know where Jeff is going to live and I sort of want to live near him again. Don't really want to live with him, though for multiple reasons....a main one being that it's just sort of creepy and takes things to a whole other scary level. Mostly scary. Gah. I wish they'd wait one more year for the remodeling. (1 Panic Attack | Don't Panic)

[07 Apr 2005|01:19am] [ mood | amused ] The most horrible/funny quote about caltech I've seen. Stolen from someone's away message. ( Cut so you can't blame me for offending your virgin eyes or anything ) (2 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

waste of time quiz [10 Mar 2005|03:36am] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | Blame it on me - Maria Mena ] Because I like wasting time. =) ( This entry has been formatted to fit your screen ) I'm tired, and hate work and don't want to do work anymore. Just want to sit around and read and watch anime and such. Blah. Really don't want to take finals. Oh well. (Don't Panic)

I like books [26 Feb 2005|06:11pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | brandeis voicemale ] Since I enjoy reading, and probably have a "to read" pile of books as tall as I am, I thought I'd do this and add some more books to the pile. :o) Also don't want to do work. =) List of the top 110 banned books. Bold the ones you've read. Italicize the ones you've read part of. Underline the ones you would like to read. Read more. Convince others to read some. ( Don't feel like taking up entire friend's pages with this ) (2 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

[16 Feb 2005|03:03am] [ mood | loved ] [ music | PoT in the background ] Blah blah blah. Valentine's Day. So forth, and so on. It was fun and sweet, though I think I'll always give Jeff somewhat of a hard time since we first got together the day after Valentine's Day. It's sort of weird, because at the time, I didn't expect the relationship to last this long. Don't get me wrong, I love that it has, but given startings of relationships, this is not one of the most typical beginnings for a serious relationship. Whatever, it works. I just still can't really describe it. We were out to dinner on Valentine's day (in a group, with 3 other people) just as a group, and while waiting outside the restaurant, I just got a feeling like "I want to spend more time with him." Before that I knew who he was (he lived down the hall from me) and had spoken with him, but never really talked, or spent much time with him. It's weird. I'm glad it has worked out, though, and amazed that's been a year since then already. Of course, that also means that it's been a year now since we lost all of our money in Vegas. :-) There's something else on my mind, but it's far too private for a place like livejournal. Maybe I'll explain in a couple of years, but for now it's good. Also, being 21 is kinda fun. :o) (1 Panic Attack | Don't Panic)

[31 Jan 2005|04:01pm] [ mood | exhausted ] I've been sleeping a lot and I'm still tired. Went to the health center today, to have them fix me. Apparently I may not be alive, though. The nurse tried to take my temperature with one of those disposable thermometers. It has a lot of dots on it, which are supposed to turn blue. I guess if too many of them are blue, then you have a fever. I didn't turn any of them blue, though. They gave me antibiotics though, just in case I am actually alive. I think what's most annoying is that I feel like, despite being annoyingly cold-like sick, that I should be able to work. There's a sort of fog over my brain, though, that's making it hard to concentrate or think for extended periods though. On a completely unrelated note, we got some "invitation" to a financial conference sort of thing around here. I don't understand the first sentence though: 'Because you were referred to me, I wanted to personally invite you as my VIP guest to hear my story and be trained by "4" of my personal mentors, who are some of the wealthiest self-made multi-millionaires in America.' Why is the 4 in quotations? I don't understand. It seems like that would be one of the least ambiguous things about the statement. Off to work or sleep now. (1 Panic Attack | Don't Panic)

[27 Jan 2005|06:32pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | the doom song ] *insert obligatory offer of gmail invites now that I've given in and gotten one of those stupid accounts* sleep now. ahhhhhhhhh sleep. and sushi tonight. yum :o) (Don't Panic)

[27 Jan 2005|12:16am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | acapella version of "Like a prayer" ] Gah, Ph106 is the suck! But penguins are good. As is being 21. :o) If you're bored, you should go check out the overly many user icons I now have, thanks to my search for some Ozy and Millie icons. It's fun. Also hooray for a possible stack idea, assuming no one does it this year. I hope no one does. I'm excited about it. I'd tell you what it is, but my underclassmen boyfriend is on my computer too much for him to not see it if I did that. Ask me if you're curious, or really bored. Now I'll just have to post more so that I have an excuse to go through my many icons. (2 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

It's time for the happy dance! [22 Dec 2004|06:40pm] [ mood | happy ] I passed! Hooray! That is all. :o) (3 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

too much TV [18 Dec 2004|03:23am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | the hum of my computer ] courtesy of VH1 (which I have been watching waaaay too much of recently...please refer to this appropriate Something Positive comic for reference)..... "Women fake orgasms, men fake entire relationships." While I don't think I've experienced the second one, I have seen it, and ohhh boy is it true. As for the first....it's not like you want to know whether I have even had an opportunity to do so or not, so let's just not go there. :-P (4 Panic Attacks | Don't Panic)

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